a collapse

Started to collapse or just collapsed to start
Is it a new beginning or a begin to fall apart?
A step to relief a pain or just anther step
To assure what I feel when my hands pass on my ribs
I feel my hearts' crakes under my finger tips
It isn’t a pleasant thing … not a thing that makes u proud
To suddenly lose control … collapse to rest on the ground
But u know … I still keeping a piece of advice in my mind
If u fall and hit the ground … u have no choice but rising up and rewind

losing hope

Do u know how it looks like to lose hope?
It's like hanging from Ur nick by a rope
Trying so hard to touch the ground by Ur feet
And even trying to die and admit defeat
U fail to do both and keep swinging in air
Not alive…not dead …and even don't care
Then after a while u lose Ur interest
Ur mind begin to think … surrender means rest
While all of this is happening … u'll find people watching u

They never try to help…only u can help u ...cut the rope and go

happy birthday

There is no happiness in a life you can't control
Happy birthday …is that's all
What can such few words help to do?
If there is no soul in whom they are addressed to
Carrying all my sadness inside
Using my angelic face with a big smile to hide behind
With a lot of empty words to say
Moving as a ghost … flouting in air like spray
There is no happiness in a dream u can't find
Every one seem to see it and u r blind
Gripping your hops as you have been taught
But they slip through Ur fingers as a toad
Now every one is here …the music starts to play
Celebrating with my wounds in my birthday
Everyone is happy…they are happy for me
Funny…as I see my happiness faraway
Whatever they do my happiness is locked and she holds the key
I'm grateful to have them beside me…but still for her existence I pray
Her departure wasn't my fault but I don't know why I have to pay
Here I come with the Fear to hurt anyone shakes the earth under my feet
Feeling responsible strikes my heart with every beat
Shall I tell them how I feel…how much I'm sad?
Shall I make them share my pain or that's gonna make me look bad
But it isn't my right to torture them by a grace I once had
to ABEER in my frist birthday without her beside

18/7

my believes

Questioning my believes…realizing my nightmare
Talking with my dieing soul about despair
That's what you were doing that day there
Asking questions to prove a theory behind
Invading with Ur words my exhausted mind
I didn't answer because I lost words I don’t want to
Find
Pressing on my wounds will not solve any thing
Killing me slowly isn't the best u can bring
If u takes our friendship as granted so that's the alert bill I ring
Saying that u didn’t change and that was always Ur way
May be that's the truth but still hurting me under its name isn’t ok
As me as everybody u have Ur mistakes and for every sign u going to bay
I know that u likes me and that u r the one I adore
And may be our friend ship is my life escape door
But if u r not gonna listen to my words…so what is our friendship for

never complain again

Hush…be quite my heart ... keep your screams down...try to sustain
Don't try to say…don't try to cry…don't try to show sadness or pain
For your dignity…for your friends…for me…try not to complain
Despite how many times the knife of silence keep stabbing you again and again
Smile…laugh…make others laugh…and be sure Ur blood don't leave a stain
Step a side…let some one else take control of me…let my reasonable brain
And stop searching for someone to understand…it's like searching on a ground for a grain

what i'll do

We live to learn how to survive our problems
We survive them by finding new ways of doing things
Never surrender…never accept to live without difficulties
We take the good…we take the bad …we take what life brings
I know that I should be thankful for the happiness
I have shared and for all the unforgettable memories
Thankful for living my life…judging it having my chances
When others died so young having no other choices
Unfortunately I will always have a fragile heart facing the world sadness
I know that every time I'll be sad I'll forget all of this
I'll forget how once I was blessed…and only feel hopeless
I know that when I'll be angry…I'll scream
And when I'll be happy…I'll dream
When feeling unsecured I'll show braid to protect my self steam
This was and will always be my rules…and it's harder than it seem

falling

Falling in the deepest hole
Feeling that my soul is hollow
Darkness around me every where
Find no stars no light to follow
Can any one show me the way?
I guess I have to find new soul to borrow
Am I asking for too much?
Some happiness…to release me from the chain
I'm like a bird … borne to be free
Loneliness…mean death not only pain
Just need a chance to regain my glory
A chance to return on the top of my game
Promising everyone I'll forgive
I won't seek any one to raise the blame
But life is so cruel and unfair Every time I raise it make me fall again