happy birthday

There is no happiness in a life you can't control
Happy birthday …is that's all
What can such few words help to do?
If there is no soul in whom they are addressed to
Carrying all my sadness inside
Using my angelic face with a big smile to hide behind
With a lot of empty words to say
Moving as a ghost … flouting in air like spray
There is no happiness in a dream u can't find
Every one seem to see it and u r blind
Gripping your hops as you have been taught
But they slip through Ur fingers as a toad
Now every one is here …the music starts to play
Celebrating with my wounds in my birthday
Everyone is happy…they are happy for me
Funny…as I see my happiness faraway
Whatever they do my happiness is locked and she holds the key
I'm grateful to have them beside me…but still for her existence I pray
Her departure wasn't my fault but I don't know why I have to pay
Here I come with the Fear to hurt anyone shakes the earth under my feet
Feeling responsible strikes my heart with every beat
Shall I tell them how I feel…how much I'm sad?
Shall I make them share my pain or that's gonna make me look bad
But it isn't my right to torture them by a grace I once had
to ABEER in my frist birthday without her beside

18/7