when do we ?!

When do we stop missing someone?
When we cant recall how it felt to be with that person , also we still love that person … and the memories is unforgettable … but the feelings that accompany that feelings fad away.
When do we start to feel happy?
When we recognize that happiness is not a stop we reach it's the journey it self … we don't have to search a way to be happy as happiness is the way it self.
When do we understand life?
When we do understand that life is about something bigger than achieve a victory for our self … it's also about helping others to wine even if we had to slow down , turn around, stop and go back for them changing our own course.
When we do stop being selfish?
When we believe that, a candle loses nothing, when it lighten anther candle.
When do we stop fear the unknown?
When we do stop fearing the darkness, when we are in the light … and stop fearing the light, when we are in the darkness.
When do we stop being confused?
When we know the difference between light and darkness … and what do each stand for.

searching

Searching for…
The meaning in the meaningless
The order in every chaos
The truth in every lie
The light in darkness eye
Loyalty in my surrounding friends
The real love that never ends
A reason in the madness
A smile in the sadness
A rest in my exhausting life
A way to kill my doubt by a knife
With no results, I keep searching around
Looking every where … in the sky and the ground
But finally I discovered one thing
"To find what u lost, u have to stop searching"

the five people you meet in heaven

that's the name of an amircan fantasy novel by Mitch albom, it was puplished at 2003 and produced as a film at 2oo4.

The story begins with the death of an elderly man named Eddie who works as a maintenance man in an amusement park called Ruby Pier. When one of the park's rides suddenly malfunctions one day, Eddie tries to save a young girl from being crushed beneath it.
Eddie grows up at ruby pier due to his father's working there as a maintenance man. When he grows up, he tries to leave the pier behind him and takes up jobs such as driving taxis instead of following in his father's footsteps. When his father dies, he is forced to take up his old job in an effort to support his wife and his mother financially. He and his wife end up living in an apartment from which the Carousel at Ruby Pier can be seen. In the end, Eddie never does leave Ruby Pier and lives out his days until he eventually dies.
After Eddie's death the story begins As though awakening from a dream, he finds himself alone in the deserted theme park and decides to explore. He then starts to meet five people each have to teach him something about his life he didn't know before. He asks each person if he had managed to save the young girl at the park, receiving no answer from any of them.
The first person Eddie meet is a blue-skinned man , this man explained to Eddie that he has arrived in Heaven and going to meet anther four people each appeared during his life on Earth, that man also explain why Eddie is feeling as a little boy because he had met this guy while he was a little boy . He was killed as a result of Eddie running in the street after his ball. The Blue Man teaches Eddie his first lesson, which is that there are no random acts in life, and that all incidents are intertwined in some way.
The second person Eddie met was his former war captain. He explained that, although he shot Eddie after Eddie put an enemy hut on fire while he was in Philippine, Eddie thought then that he saw a little girl in the hut and tried to enter the hut saving the child, his captain had to shoot him to stop him from entering the hut and being burned to death, he never forgives his captain for shooting him because that injury affects his way of walking till the end of his life, the captain kept his promise by not leaving him behind and even sacrificed his life so Eddie and two other soldiers were able to live. He also teaches Eddie that when one loses something, they often gain something else.
The third person was Ruby, she was the wife of the park owner which the park also named after her, She teaches Eddie to let go of his anger and to forgive his father for the damage he caused in his life by silence, violence, and neglect, his father worked at Ruby Pier and often returned home drunk and was violent toward Eddie, Ruby shown Eddie the realty of his father's death, she shown him that his father saved his friend, Mickey Shea from drowning which causes him to catch fatal pneumonia and while he was sick that same friend tried to attack his wife (Eddie's mother) and killed Eddie's father while he was trying to defend his wife.
The forth person he met in heaven was his wife and only true love, she died leaving his life more dull, she teaches him the lesson that love is not lost with death.
The fifth person he met was the little girl who Eddie saw crawling into the burning hut during the war, she told him that her name was Tala, Although he lived most of his life in denial, he finds out in heaven that he did kill her in the fire. She teaches Eddie that his life did have a purpose which was to keep children safe at the pier.