a collapse

Started to collapse or just collapsed to start
Is it a new beginning or a begin to fall apart?
A step to relief a pain or just anther step
To assure what I feel when my hands pass on my ribs
I feel my hearts' crakes under my finger tips
It isn’t a pleasant thing … not a thing that makes u proud
To suddenly lose control … collapse to rest on the ground
But u know … I still keeping a piece of advice in my mind
If u fall and hit the ground … u have no choice but rising up and rewind

losing hope

Do u know how it looks like to lose hope?
It's like hanging from Ur nick by a rope
Trying so hard to touch the ground by Ur feet
And even trying to die and admit defeat
U fail to do both and keep swinging in air
Not alive…not dead …and even don't care
Then after a while u lose Ur interest
Ur mind begin to think … surrender means rest
While all of this is happening … u'll find people watching u

They never try to help…only u can help u ...cut the rope and go

happy birthday

There is no happiness in a life you can't control
Happy birthday …is that's all
What can such few words help to do?
If there is no soul in whom they are addressed to
Carrying all my sadness inside
Using my angelic face with a big smile to hide behind
With a lot of empty words to say
Moving as a ghost … flouting in air like spray
There is no happiness in a dream u can't find
Every one seem to see it and u r blind
Gripping your hops as you have been taught
But they slip through Ur fingers as a toad
Now every one is here …the music starts to play
Celebrating with my wounds in my birthday
Everyone is happy…they are happy for me
Funny…as I see my happiness faraway
Whatever they do my happiness is locked and she holds the key
I'm grateful to have them beside me…but still for her existence I pray
Her departure wasn't my fault but I don't know why I have to pay
Here I come with the Fear to hurt anyone shakes the earth under my feet
Feeling responsible strikes my heart with every beat
Shall I tell them how I feel…how much I'm sad?
Shall I make them share my pain or that's gonna make me look bad
But it isn't my right to torture them by a grace I once had
to ABEER in my frist birthday without her beside

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